Tired of being tired.

I’m tired of being so depressed that it makes me feel tired all the time even when i’ve had more than enough hours needed for a good night’s sleep (which rarely happens for me), i’m tired of trying to be strong, i’m tired of having suicidal thoughts, i’m tired of pretending everything is ok, i’m tired of worrying about the future and scared, i’m tired of living the life I live right now.