My parents saw my cus and flipped of course. then say i need to go to a psychiatrist again and this guy seems to not understand or give a crap…..i just want to know what to do, how to feel at least ok. I want help. I want to be ok. But nothing works i tried it all and nothing. I can be doing a million things and i still can’t stop thinking about everything thats wrong.
I cant stop thinking about dying….i just want to die. i want just stop breathing.
All i think about is the next time i can cut myself, when my relatives leave and i can get a razor and cut.
I feel so empty and alone. i fake all my feelings.
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so stop faking your feelings… and it is not easy to kill yourself… just do what you have to do… i don’t mean cutting yourself… btw i feel empty and alone too and have been feeling so for the past 20 years… yes sometimes u have to fake it… that u r getting along with the people around you, and lemme tell you a secret.. when we say that people don’t care… it is actually bcoz we don’t care about them and what they do… it all seems stupid to us… nobody can help us but ourselves… u want someone to care then start by caring for yourself… trust me it is very difficult… after all these years i still fall into depression, it is like a cycle, a loop…. but i pull myself out of it everytime… and that too without a psychiatrist’s prescription. do the things that make you feel better… even if it is for a short while it gives you some relief, oh by the way it all depends on whether you are someone who wants try to live or someone who wants to die… i feel that you belong to the first category.. that is the only reason why i am here for you… take care… don’t hurt your parents … they deserve better than that… remember they would be feeling even more helpless than you seeing what you are going through… it is never bcoz they don’t care but coz they don’t know how to help…