My life has fallen apart, i lost guy i wanted to spend my life with. I told my parents i need help they just said you’ll be fine here is a news flash i’m not fine…oh and hey i don’t even own a fucking cat think it through..I mean i want people to help me but i shut myself off and say i’m fine but how do i tell someone i’m not fine..And if they ask whats wrong oh hey i just want to kill myself they wouldn’t understand…Also i was thinking when is it a good time in a relationship to tell the person you cut yourself and you want to die? i mean at the start before hand or just when ever?
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To be honest, my boyfriend found out I was cutting before we even stepped into a relationship, but we were pretty close friends first. And not all situations are like that so all I can say is that although my boyfriend wants me to stop, it’s because he gets worried about me.
Not because he thinks I look disgusting or am ‘overreacting’ I found this to be the right amount of worry and support. As I think my scars are beautiful, so I don’t think I could share them so personally with someone who thought they were disgusting or were created from selfish/unnecessary means.
Everyone is different so go with what is comfortable with you. Personally I would tell them before anything intimate happens because they WILL be surprised and might be turned off by them, not because they are vile, but maybe because he/she is surprised and worried. And that situation would be really awkward, especially since you might not expect them to react the way they do. Very confronting situation.
Good luck.
(Oh and I was drunk when I told my boyfriend, made it all really easy!)
When my “boyfriend” (at the time) found out…. He…. Uh…. Well he Tried to rape me. Simple as that. Said “if you don’t care about yourself that much, why not just whore your self out to me!” It didn’t go well to say the least. I never said anything ’bout it till now. : ) [*Well I’ll be watching my back alot more now.*] Except he would never say bf/gf. He just introduced me by name. &nd when people asked he was just kinda like “okay”, “shure”, “whatever”. I guess it was kind of an abusive relationship. We both have scars from it. Physical ones not just emotional. He liked to jokes around with my tendencies ’cause he knew it pissed me off but it hurt me too much to fight back. I hope I’m not like convincing you to keep it a secret &nd not tell him. Just be careful who tell.
Don’t know how old you are, but broken relationships are always painful. This gets easier to understand as you get older. And slowly you figure out that “nothing is forever”.
I know your pain is deep, and virtual hugs don’t do much, but I’m sorry for your pain.
Now I just hate everyone equally (LOL)
@Titanium – Don’t know who you’re talking to… I’m guessing the author though. But since YOUR post is pored under MY post, I’m gonna butt-in &nd (partly) answer your question. Actually there there wasn’t a question? mark after any of your sentences… but still. I was 11/12 when that happened. Not saying how old I am now. But it happened a while ago.
**so many autocorrects mistakes in my previous post**