Its the sadness and anxiety I can’t overcome. The overwhelming feeling of loss and abandonment. I don’t know what to do. All I want to do is eat a gun. I want him back so bad but he still needs time to think things through. It’s hard not kissing him and touching him. He doesn’t want me. I feel so empty so defeated. It’s a pain I’ve never felt before and I don’t recommend it to anyone. It’s like a piece of me has been taken away and no matter how hard I try I can’t get it back. It sucks. I feel like shit. I don’t want to be here anymore!