It’s been a long time since I was last on here. Months. And now I’ve come back because I am in a need to vent a bit.
You see, in the time I’ve been gone, I’ve come to terms with my own sexuality and accepted it. I am pansexual. And I also notified my mum about it. She was… less than happy, shall we say. In fact, we’ve been having long and arduous conversations (read: arguments) over this issue. Because my mum wont accept it. Thinks it’s wrong. And it just breaks my heart to know that my only parent doesn’t accept that part of me. It wouldn’t bother me if it were anyone else BUT family, though since it is…
She doesn’t see my way and probably never will.
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Hi Sinine,
Congratulations with coming to terms with your own sexuality!
A gay friend of mine also had a problem with his father, who was in the military. He thought his father would never accept him and his friend. Over time (two years or so), however, his conservative father mellowed and now things are fine.
Give your mum some time; It’s all new to her.
trc,
Thanks for the love, really, but I am almost certain my mum will never accept this part of me. She’s a religious fundamentalist and will probably always be. She’s a lovely mother, but it’s like she’s ignoring this small part of me that makes me… well, me. She admitted she was afraid to talk to me on this subject, because she said she felt like somehow she had raised me up wrong.
And for some reason it hurts to hear that. I’m not even sure if I’m angry at her for saying that or not.