Honestly death seems the only ways out

This will be my last post ever or last words i guess i know that none of you know me. But today i will die why i cant see anything bright or good I have lost all my friends to suecide just recently i lost my girlfriend the only person i loved the most on friday of cocain. please dont try to stop me i have 3 therapist and they could not help at alland please dont tell me my parents will be sad and care if i do beacouse i will say honestly thats a bunch of bs. When you learn that you were a “mistake” and that they wanted a girl from all of your family and coming from someone you have looked up and thaought he cared for you and see those dam eyes you lose all hope no cutting no drinking no smoking helps the pain just is infinite my last way out is suecide goodbye people………