Just the thought in my head, the pain in my heart and the pen in my hand.

I fake my smile, day by day,
I want to stop feeling this way,
I want to stop sitting in silence, trembling and shaking.
I want the beat in my heart to stop the aching.
I breath in deeper than deep,
All I want to do is weep and weep.
My strong shield is cracking and breaking.
I have to quit, and stop my faking.
It’s so painful and hard to stay strong.
I just want to be happy, its been so long.
I’ve lost all hope in this thing called life,
Now all I’m depending on is this half blunt knife.