Secretly

Secretly it hurts… it hurts so bad i feel like ill break down… should I be with someone I crush on or had been with and trust… depression or lies… who what… make it all stop, Jason make it all stop i need you… Take me away and with that my memory, oh please it hurts im the marionette of a whore… secretly it hurts and id rather scream than smile.. mommy saw my scars.. bubby is so sad because Im not sure if i want him… the sub yelled at me all day.. give up because you cant be a string player… no no no no no! Falling too far.. blossom was worried about me… why? Why???? I wont explode.. i wont explode… school work home life relationship life internet, no where safe but inside my head.. I want to stab my emotions… wrap them in a pretty bow. never NEVER GOOD ….mmm…..fuck… secretly ill die.. secretly..