i dont know why, but lately ive cryed over the weirdest things. sometimes i start crying over seemingly stupid things, which makes me feel like a little spoiled brat crying over nothing, which makes me feel like no one would want to help me which makes me cry. school is awful. three days in and im so done.
if you’ve read my previous posts, you’ll know about the guy in my class. things have just been getting worse. i want to hate him. i want to hate him just so it would be easier. it wouldnt matter what he felt, because i would hate him and not give a shit about him. but i dont hate him. i like him so much i feel like im going to explode from everything i want to say to him, and hes just. there. not knowing how messed up i am over him.
but not just him. everything. cross country on friday. im not a runner. im so much heavier then all the other girls in my class. i want to make myself throw up, just so i dont have to do it.
everythings just awful at the moment