well this is my story…
i am 18. i am no longer in school bc i feel victim to a sexual predator when i was 16/17….my “best friend” gave him $100 for my number.. he sent me so much shit that i just couldnt deal w/ it….i have been depressed before and attempted to kill myself before, but this was different. i took 45 benadryl and hoped to never wake up….sad fact is, my life is still worse
before this i had a girfriend. we had sex and well she became pregnant. i was nervous as all heck but i was almost overjoyed to be a father soon, i agreed to give everything up for the baby…..taht all changed
one night i was home and i had to tell my gf that i couldnt go out, she took a pill that is now known as RU486 that night behind my back. for those of you who dont know that is the new abortion pill that kills a baby up to 7 weeks old, she was 3 1/2
She was born August 29th,2012; in my head. i dream of her everynight. lily is her name that my dreams gave her. however every dream starts amazing. then she dies right in my arms every night…same dream for 9 months on may 29th….
i want to die, i lost hope and i wanna be gone. i dont know how but i just do..i cant live with myself knowing that “because id be a terrible father to her” is the reason i lost my daughter i never had.
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Very Sad. And because you care so much seems you’ll make a great dad some day and with someone who is also ready and respects you and your strengths.
she was 3 1/2? weeks? months?
Did she say why she thought you’d be a terrible father?
Many people who grow and change and work on their relationships end up being far better parents when they are older than they would have been in their youth.
She was 3 1/2 weeks and she said I wouldn’t be a good father bc I was arrogant and unworthy although I’m one of the most passive people I know,..idk I just try every night to move on but I can’t…I lost my friends to the petaphile and my family hates me…
Sad thing is, I’m the reason why my daughte
Daughter died..*
please dont blame yourself, yougave everything for her and for some reason it didnt last but you did your part as a father and everything will be okay i promise maybe not today or tomorrow but someday you will find happiness