Initially this post was going to be (and still may be) similar to a lot of posts where i complain about how undesirable i feel to women. The impetice for that feeling was a commercial for a movie called How to be single. I get it “everybody sleeps around”. Well pop culture and the 6 to 9 corporations that own you. FUCK OFFF!!!! Im a super depressed introvert who hates social networking and doesn’t look like brad pitt. Furthermore the few times in my life where i did luck into a “hook up” left me feeling empty. It isnt for me. But it is a […]
… and it’s true.
I was just told this by my GF after she ran through the checklist of all my failures and shortcomings. As if I was completely unaware and aloof of how utterly fucked I am and have been for the last few years. Now, I’m sure she means to somehow motivate me or in some other way try to light a fire under my ass to somehow ferret my way to at least a treading water type of existence in some clever way – she’d be ecstatic if I could manage that.
What’s funny (ironic/weird type funny … and in a twisted way funny ha […]
i just found this site while surfing ways to kill myself… i am so fed up with my life so i am quiting it by killing myself my GF thinks that i dont have faith on her and i am bad guy and my thinking also cheap… i never use any bad things to her, always loyal to her, give my all time to her but after listening these words from her my heart is full broken and wanna end myself so that one day she realise how much i love her.. thanks everyone for supporting me..and sorry for those who loved me …GOODBYE
i am 22 year old boy, i just screw all thing. i screw my graduation and now i am not able to get any job. my gf is a DBA and she is forcing me all time that she do not want to live with me if i have no job in future. i am depress , i love her but she don’t because i don’t have money and job. i think i have no right to make GF. i am very innocent i just hurt when she look other guy with awesome car and she respect those guy and disrespect me because of money. […]
recently I just broke up w my chick.. cuz i showed her my depressive side.. and she couldn’t accept it and felt very uncomfortable.. well breaking up w her was one of the worst and traumatic experiences i have gone through in a very long time.. but now i feel better!
I learnt a lot from it.. and I wish that I was feeling this calm and relaxed about my life when I was still dating her 🙁
I felt that after breaking up.. that I really needed to change myself and the way I think and behave on a day to day basis.. I have […]
so.. tomorrow I’m turning 28.. I guess this is like journalling to me.. with the hopes someone out there actually gives a shit..
but I’ve had a long story with depression and stuff.. and I think I’m finally coming around the bend.. kids.. take note.. I just recently broke up w my gf.. I went fkin psycho on her like most of my ex girlfriends.. and it was going so good and she was so nice.. very beautiful.. and we both liked to hang out and party and drink.. she was pretty much the perfect companion.. well good enough for now.. and I fucked it all […]
My first post in a while.
I don’t know what it is that keeps pulling me back here, but no matter how my life is going eventually I always end up back here. Maybe it is the safety of the internet, perhaps it is that I know you all understand what it means to be depressed. I feel like I have made some of my greatest friends on here because they actually get me. I don’t have to pretend with you guys. Its nice, I guess I just miss that.
I work in an office now, software development, its fine, im good at it, but I have […]
well this is my story…
i am 18. i am no longer in school bc i feel victim to a sexual predator when i was 16/17….my “best friend” gave him $100 for my number.. he sent me so much shit that i just couldnt deal w/ it….i have been depressed before and attempted to kill myself before, but this was different. i took 45 benadryl and hoped to never wake up….sad fact is, my life is still worse
before this i had a girfriend. we had sex and well she became pregnant. i was nervous as all heck but i was almost overjoyed to be a father […]
This post might not make sence unless you’ve read my previous one..
I think i’m glad I didn’t look inside when his best friend was outside the apartment crying. The neighbor did… But something in my head said “don’t look in there, you don’t need to see. You know what happened, don’t be stupid and make the pain worse..”…. I kinds wish I looked…. Just to see how he died rather than just imagining and repeating the horror story his friend told me…… When we were standing outside as the investigatirs were taking the pictures and such, Roberts friend that witnessed his death broke the […]
I used to be this happy little girl who only saw good in the world, nothing could keep me down. Now its like the smallest thing makes me want to pop a bottle of pills… maybe its because it all builds up. My mother has said so much about my weight, along with others, that everytime its mentioned i want to go purge. When it comes to people i dont even know anymore. I dont want to be alone but sometimes i dont want to be around others because i know that half the time people wont be focusing on me. I dont see point […]
It’s incredible to think that I have to stop here. But the pain is overwhelming. I am afraid of being alone. Too afraid. I have no family. I was abandoned by my parents when I was 6 and I never saw them again. Right now I have a GF who abuses me psychologically, she is a drug addict who cheats on me and I cannot leave her because I am too scared of being alone. Loneliness is my handicap and I can’t take it anymore. I have no self respect to say NO and way too much resentment towards her to be able to solve […]
What the fuck? The other day you were saying you loved me and how much i meant to you, you made me feel wanted, loved accpeted, you brought me out the dumps, my rock. But then things went wierd, you started to ignor me, so i message you “just asking but have i done something wrong?” and then his GIRLFRIEND replies from HIS phone, “This is his gf who thw fuck is tthis” and ofcourse im like, hisÂ girlfriend? he said he was single, why is she messaging me, he has my number, why is she asking? So i reply “Who is this” as in […]
Hello, just ranting on about my life.
I am committing suicide soon. I have wanted to commit suicide for a long time (10+ years), but I am at the point now where I know I can kill myself.
The reason I know is that I have been doing things that I would have never done before over the past two or so years. I have forced myself out of my comfort zone, had a ton of experiences I would have never had otherwise, and learnt a lot. One of the things I have learnt is the ability to just DO IT (pls don’t sue).
I said fuck it. […]
I use to have these feelings in my late teens, now a few years later they all just came right back in one day. granted they popped in my insane head a few days before but just briefly. Now its all I think about. Its all I think about that my “GF” keeps lieing to me, and being sneaky. Everytime I confront her about it she TRIES to turn it around on me. I cant it anymore. Trust me, thers more problems going on with me that lil bit**. But she’s the icing on the cake. I just want to WHACK myself like the […]
me and my gf broke up about 3 days ago it wasnt just a normal relationship (9months ago i lost my mother to cancer) and this girl was the only thing that Â could stop the void and heartache and i dont know i honestly feel lost…
Oka’y, now shes my ex’s friend. She is also friends with my Ex’s girlfriend and I just need some feedback on our conversation
Me: Hey, Im bored
Her: Well, get a life
Me: I have a life, Im just bored right now
Her: Im sorry youre a loser
Wanna go to the movies with me sometime?
Me: LMAO WHAT
Her: Cant you read?
Me: No I just feel like your fucking with me so Im laughing
Her: Why would I do that?
Me: Because It sounds like you duh?
Her: So its a no then?
Me: What movie…LOL
Her: IDC what movie
Me: Cant we just […]
I forgot to tell many shitty things on my last post, like… I was really depressed bcuz many friends left me, and i chose to give my gf a better life in exchange for hell for myself. so i decided to go to a party with people i knew and the other 600 or something. late that night, i was real happy, not drunk, just a little bit dizzy. and it was reeealy cold outside, hey its norway:P but on the way i heard yelling, and i was like, god no, why… so i turned around and saw two elder boys come at me and […]
my bf was going to commit suicide. we’ve always talked about it, but this time he sounded serious. he made me promise not to tell. he said he was going to write him suicide note and leave as soon as he was alone, most likely the next day. he said goodbye, and thank you for being an amazing gf, and sorry about a hundred times. But i was scared so i told my friend who knows all this and happens to be his ex. ive convinced her before not to tell anyone, but this time she said fuck it im telling, and told her mom. […]
I’m not sure when or how it started. Just the feeling of cracking. Like when your windshield gets hit and cracks start to spider web out further. Another thing hits and the web cracks further. And then another and another until it just breaks completely. I thought about that windshield and how it must hurt, to have those cracks, to be hit so hard like that.
Now I realize that I am that windshield.
My mother cheated on my dad and left him for my (now) step-dad when I was 6. The divorce, which was messy and grisly, was finalized a year later. I had to watch […]
My name is ryan, im 23, i have been shy and quiet all my life. I have severe anxiety, nobody understands me, i am hard of hearing i wear hearing aids. I dont consider myself ugly, but people make me feel that way. I have been a screw up most of my life, when i was 11 i started smoking weed, which then became the root of all my problems since then. I meant an amazing girl at the same time, i dated her from the time we were 11 to 17. In jr high i started getting addicted to marijuana, i skipped school, i […]