This is the kinda crap tht get me…fck man ! i have no true friends, ill never have tht one special person who tells me they love me again .. ive lost it all …ill always be alone with no one to care…its jst me in my own little dark place..the only place ill ever feel safe. idk wht to do anymore..life suck right now theres only one way out i can think of..n ive been holding on so hard for it not to happen ik i have a long ‘happy’ life ahead for me bt we will tht being ?! ugh im jst tired..tired of being n alone..
I believe we go through things for a reason. What that reason is, maybe different for you and me. I am alone as in not being in a relationship with someone. Been divorced in the past year and then remarried a woman who helped me through my divorce and then married this other woman. Only to find out that she deceived me and used me to get her own needs met and such anger this woman had. Because I was decieved, my family got broke up and my kids got hurt but we got through it. Lost the house, got debt past my eyeballs plus the embarrasment of going through all this in a small town. Drama, drama, drama! In the worlds eyes I failed big time. Lost so much and hurt so bad to realize I was just used and ended a marriage of 20 years and ended this other by anullment. But through that I have come to understand that suffering is not always a bad thing. It is a humbling experience to acknowledge that I can’t do this by myself and I need help from above to save me from myself. Believe. If we can weather the storm, things get better. Storms come and go like these tornadoes that are ripping the country up now. But they pass. Weather your storm. It will pass.
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I believe we go through things for a reason. What that reason is, maybe different for you and me. I am alone as in not being in a relationship with someone. Been divorced in the past year and then remarried a woman who helped me through my divorce and then married this other woman. Only to find out that she deceived me and used me to get her own needs met and such anger this woman had. Because I was decieved, my family got broke up and my kids got hurt but we got through it. Lost the house, got debt past my eyeballs plus the embarrasment of going through all this in a small town. Drama, drama, drama! In the worlds eyes I failed big time. Lost so much and hurt so bad to realize I was just used and ended a marriage of 20 years and ended this other by anullment. But through that I have come to understand that suffering is not always a bad thing. It is a humbling experience to acknowledge that I can’t do this by myself and I need help from above to save me from myself. Believe. If we can weather the storm, things get better. Storms come and go like these tornadoes that are ripping the country up now. But they pass. Weather your storm. It will pass.