My mother is still physically and mentally abusive. And she never use to be abusive at all but i dont really know what happened. My mom has said hurtful things to me like telling me im a fuck-up and im worthless and also that nobody likes a little girl with scars. Not to metion the physical abuse so bad that i wish she would just kill me right then, but anyways i just cant bring myself to hate her and i still care about her dearly and i even drained my bank account to help pay for her surgery and prescriptions. Is there something wrong with me? Should i hate her? I dont know why i dont…
-Jladd
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You’re not worthless, and plenty of people out there won’t judge you by your scars. Some may even like them.
I think that someday you’ll look back on all the events and realize how much of your youth was stolen by an irrational and abusive mother, and how you could have been spending your time becoming more of what you wanted to be, and sooner, instead of having no choice but to spend so much time in anguish and despair… and you might end up hating her for it, even if you don’t feel like you do right now. Or maybe you’re one of those people who will just “chalk it up to” her being sick/crazy/etc., and won’t blame her for something she perhaps couldn’t control.
I wouldn’t think it should be okay to accept mental and physical abuse. I would think you should be angry about it. But i don’t think anyone else is qualified to tell you what you should or shouldn’t feel.
People,who do that are usually mad and just taking out on everyone else. She’s your mother obviously you’ll love her for reasons you might not understand.
It’s completely ok to not be mad. She’s your mother you only get one of those in your life. But it’s also not right for her to be saying what she is to/about you. There has to be an nderlying reason as to why she says and does the things she does. And as for the scars I for one kinda like scars cause every one tells a different story from a different part of the persons life. They tell you how they got to be who they are and they show that the person was strong enough to make it through what ever caused the scar.
My mom is the same way, but sometimes, the stuff she says to you isn`t true. She`s probably really upset and depressed about certain things that she takes it out on you. But I agree with ddriggs92. It`s not right for her to be saying those things to you. And I know how it feels but it happens to me everyday. :/