my name isnt important so dont worry about who i am. i am 14 and live a sorta normal sorta weird life. im in the 8th grade and have very few friends. I love school but i get really sad when it becomes 4:00 and i have to leave. I go home to people who basically hate me and would live A LOT BETTER WITHOUT ME. i mean they wont have to get up early, make extra food, spend a lot of gas, and all that jazz. At night i basically cry myself to sleep. i tried suicide over 5 times and obviously failed EPICLY.  my mom made me like this. I LOVE her but she doesnt return the love. i remember being little and sitting up until 12:00 at night waiting for her to come home. i would soon fall asleep and would wake up in my bed. i then would get up and head to see my mom saying- ” MOMMY MOMMY GIMMIE HUG PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE I MISSED YOU … WHERE WERE YOU” she would ignore and tell me to leave her room. i cried and then would go to my pet(rip) KIA to get comfort. in the 6th grade KIA died. i felt like a part of me was gone and tried drowning myself. for days i didnt eat and my friend would get scared and told the teacher, who called my mom(smooth move teach). when i got home my mom yelled and cussed at me. she still does and i still wait up for her no matter what time it is day or night. but then the cycle went on and on and on and on and on. i finally gave up hope. i took a piece of jump rope, tied to the closet and i think you know the rest. the rope ended up breaking(dang it) and i was found lying on the floor. my mom still makes me feel this way and i cant wait until im 18 so i can finally get away.  i feel numb right and i look high as i dont know what.
LOVE,
ME…..