Alone

I’ve been walking alone. I turned back around and everyone was far away, so I continued walking. “I wasn’t afraid of being alone anymore.“ I’d whisper that to myself. But inside me was emptiness. I forgot how it was like to feel alive.  Now I just live in the memories as I walk these paths. But suddenly I was lost. I didn’t know what direction to take. I was scared. Everywhere I turned there was darkness, no light shined. So I sat there in dark hours in the middle of nowhere figuring out what I’m going to do.  I was blinded by the tears I cried. I was powerless, and helpless. I stood up and went one way. I ended up in the real world. It was brutal and cruel. It was the biggest mistake ever. I ran away. There was no escape. I was stuck in this world. In a world full of pain and harm. The hardest part was just taking these breaths to be alive even if I just wanted to stop breathing. I closed my eyes for a moment. I turned to look to the other side hoping I’d see someone to hug but no one was there. Even in the real world I was alone……..