I know you are gone, but I keep looking at my phone and checking mail if MABY just maby you didnt kill yourself. I feel like Im going crazy….
Mom lost it yesterday…. For 2 days now she is totally out, she lost contact with reallity. She needs professional help.
And you thought you are the crazy one? Look at all of us now – lost without you.
And you thought nobody loves you…
You were so so so soooooooooooo wrong!!!!!!
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We really appreciate that you came on this site and offered the other perspective. I know that it’s very difficult to come to terms with. You will never forget but you’ll eventually find a way to let go. Every family experiences at least one traumatic event. One of you will have to become the matriarch.
He/she was loved evidently but maybe people werent their when they were needed. When we lose something we care about that we didn’t appreciatte enough we are hurt and wish we could have done more. Until you lose it you don’t apprecite it enough. I bet you all loved him/her a lot but maybe he/she was alone? Life keeps us busy….its easy for a parent to work, do errands, and briefly talk to their kid hoping the little time they have for them is enough. My mother loves me, my siblings love me. They don’t talk to me. I lived with them for 18 years. I lived alone for those 18 years. Yeah they loved me but they weren’t there. My mother is a cold person. As is her mother. As am i. On here im sensitive. In person im as cold as ice. Self-reliance…mmmm sorry i what i said sounds messed up….i can see you all miss him/her, I am sorry that you lost him/her.
I feel bad for you really! It’s sad when we lose people to suicide. I’ve been there and done that. I still think about this person. I didn’t forgive him at first but now I do. Without ranting too much maybe this person who your family lost probably forgot that they were loved at the time because of anguish? My belief is that suicide is neither forgotten nor do people ever get over it. That’s why I’m not dead yet. Two favourite doctors of mine, and four favourite family members, and one favourite friend, would never get over my death ever! They love me far too much, I think it’d be easier for them to deal with me dying in some other way, but not by suicide.