I dont know why, but i want to kill all the people around me.
Even my family, i love them but, i really want to kill them.
I dont know whats happening whit me, am i crazy?
I feel empty. More death that alive.
I cant feel anything. I not even smile or cry. I feel cold. Empty.
I have try anything. Doctors, medicine, therapy… nothing helps.
I just feel all this fucking needs of blood and death.
Can somebody help me? Please!?
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Hey man if i wrote what you just wrote
FBI, CIA, POLICE, they’d all be knocking on my doors
in order to make “MUSLIMS” look bad and drive us out
of the country.
– Sumer Kolcak
@Sumer Kolcak
Do you fear those bastards?
They can beat you and throw you in jail.
Im alredy know that.
Even in jail or in the psyquiatric, will be the same.
So what you’re asking is:
How do I get rid of these thoughts, but without harming anyone?
Could you be a psycopath, do you think?
This is a blog by a psycopath, who is also a scientist, I think, maybe she can help you, if you try to contact her:
http://www.sociopathworld.com/
As far as I know, there is no known cure for psycopathy, if that is what you suffer from.
But maybe you can change your environment, to avoid hurting others?
If you don’t suffer from psychopathy, keep trying to find a good therapist/coach. Because then someone must be able to help you.
Or maybe you have some ideas yourself?
@muspelhem
Thanks for the info.
But i dont are sociopaht.
Well, at least, i dont feel like im sick or something.
You know something? I think you give me an a idea.
Thanks for that.
A lot of people told me the same thing.
But i dont feel like a psycho. I mean, i dont want to kill for fun or something like that.
Is more like i want somebody who wants to give me some battle.
Someone who gives me some funny thing to do.
If you want to kill everyone around you then yep, you’re crazy bro.
Your not crazy, I’m a vegetarian who hates seeing people fight or in pain I hate violence, but at the same time I have this other part of me that’s sadistic and bloodthirsty I have constant thoughts about killing the people around me, stabbing them torturing them just sick shit, so no your not crazy as long as you can separate fantasy and reality the way I do you’ll be ok, you also say you feel empty, well I did too years ago I struggled with eating disorders and depression/anxiety I was empty I felt I had nothing to live for but I realized the human mind is a powerful weapon you feel what you believe if you feel empty it’s because you believe you are but you can convince your mind of anything instead of empty tell yourself your worth it and your mind will believe it
@Death Man – Do you have a plan, for killing everyone around yourself?
I’m not asking what that plan might be; just whether (or not) you have a plan: yes or no?
it’s not wrong there’s no right feeling to have or an explanation to receive. maybe the most rational solution is to find peace by escaping reality
Well, actually, i have a plan.
But one part of me dont want to kill them; that is the part of me who tell me that i must have patience whit them… but that part is dying a little bit more each day.
I dont know why. I just feel a need of hurt them. I want to see them cry and shout for mercy. I will ask them if they want mercy. If he/she dont want my mercy, i leave them live.
Man… did i wrote that?
I dont know what to do! I know i need help, but i dont want to be in a psyquiatric again!
@xXSecretesXx
I have try that. It help me at the beginning, but, whit time, i fall in the same dark thougst.
@powerless
You mean by taking drugs? or meditation?
I dont like that kind of things. I think that escape from reality is a coward option.
I dont want to be a coward. Not anymore.
Okay if you want to kill everyone around you AND you have a plan then you’re considered crazy and dangerous.
The crazy is because you should NOT want to kill your entire family and everyone around you. The dangerous is because you’re one step away from attempting a massacre. It’s actually most dangerous to yourself, because people suffering like you will try to off themselves.
If the psych ward sucked that you were in then ask for a different location. I’ve been in 2 one sucked the other one was kinda fun. You should not need to suffer like what you wrote in you posts. But you’re not gonna have great luck solving this one over the Internet.
Call a crisis hotline. Get some professional help. You were right to be concerned. You’re in a very dangerous situation and the people you care about most are too.
I dont know why but i smile while i was reading your comment.
All my life i been a little strange boy, it was ok. I was able to get rid of the idiots who make fun of me. That was the start of everything, the start of the tagging in myself.
Then, i pass for many doctors, mental hospitals and that kind of lovely places.
Now, im free. I start to make some money and i think i can get anything that a boy of my age hopes that they mommy and daddy buy to them.
But, is boring. Really boring.
Everything is gray. The people is mindless.
And the ones who are like me… they, THEY PUT US IN FUCKING JAILS!
The truth is that i dont feel suffer. Actually, i think i will enjoy to feel it.
Feel something!
But there only endless gray. There are no colors but the red, the bloody red.
I know myself. I not a fucking psycho. Im just one bored man.
A man who wish that something fun happens. A man who is tired of the people, the sistem and the modern way of life.
Hahahaha!
Daam, im just one more sick fuck, and the funny thing is, i want to die.
But not by my own hand, i want to die in some kind of combat or something.
Anyway, you might be right. I need some kind of help. But, i dont wanna be locked up again. I think i must get away of this place, move to the mountains or something.