I have two sisters who have attempted suicide (by overdose) multiple times. Â At the moment I am lacking much feeling, but am not particularly depressed or anxious. Â There isn’t much that makes life worth living, but nothing to induce me to death. Â It’s a big change for me. Â I’ve been depressed and anxious for many years, but I always felt like I had a purpose in life, even if I didn’t know what it was. Â Right now I don’t feel that way. Â I know that if I wait long enough my mental state will change. Â It always does. Â But then it will change again after a bit. Â So that sucks. Â But it’s awful when you love someone who is suffering. Â I know that. Â I try not to hide when I’m in misery, but I know people don’t recognise it. Â And those who do don’t comment. Â I love all my siblings and never want them to feel about me how I have felt about their suffering. Â But I know I should trust them. Â It’s hard. Â I am not stoic, but I try to package my problems as small fixable things, rather than big tangly threads. Â And sometimes they seem that way.