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Fighting to stay sane

by to be or not to be 7/15/2013

written by to be or not to be

The worst fear in my life is not that i will lead a lonely life but that the loneliness will drive me insane.

Even when I am in the midst of a huge crowd, a familiar crowd of friends and relatives, that feeling of loneliness creeps in and sometimes pushes me into that unholy pool of madness… where the first impulse is to hide from everyone, the second is a strong desire to run away from everythingÂ and everyone,and then i get caught up in a feeling of despair… at how helpless and useless i am and then the doubts about why i am here to […]

7/15/2013 10 comments

going along

by weary 6/27/2013

written by weary

I have two sisters who have attempted suicide (by overdose) multiple times. Â At the moment I am lacking much feeling, but am not particularly depressed or anxious. Â There isn’t much that makes life worth living, but nothing to induce me to death. Â It’s a big change for me. Â I’ve been depressed and anxious for many years, but I always felt like I had a purpose in life, even if I didn’t know what it was. Â Right now I don’t feel that way. Â I know that if I wait long enough my mental state will change. Â It always does. Â But then it will change again after […]

6/27/2013 0 comment

SadBk

by Letmesleep 1/21/2013

written by Letmesleep

I dislike clogging up this site with threads like this, but I didn’t really have any other way to contact you. I was wondering if you’d email me briefly? I have a couple questions I’d like to ask you. No significant emotional or time commitment is necessary, I just wanted to clarify something you said. I would really appreciate it.

1/21/2013 2 comments

From the archives: Escape.

by sansesperer 8/15/2012

written by sansesperer

THIS WAS ORIGINALLY WRITTEN IN APRIL 2012. I was still a lurker here back then.Â I didn’t have the confidence to share this.Â Â It paints a pretty accurate picture of where I was at back then.Â I thought someone may be interested.
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MyÂ therapistÂ is correct.Â The two underlying threads of my life have been seeking approval, and escapism.Â When I don’t get approval, I need to escape.Â I can’t give myself approval as I feel it is not warranted, therefore my only option is to escape.Â If not getting the approval in my relationships that I feel I need, I usually escape by withdrawal.Â However, I have […]

8/15/2012 3 comments

by haley_14633 7/17/2012

written by haley_14633

Welcome, step inside my mind!

If you aren’t worried now, its a matter of time,

Till you break through the seal, and feel what i feel,

even then for you it will never be real.

My mental health? How bad could it be?

Well its hanging by threads! Im crazy you see?

Depression has me thinking of things that are vile,

I cut and i bruise and it makes me smile,

The pain I enjoy it, frightening enough,

And when I try to put the ones that I love,

first instead of myself,

It really makes me think…

Don’t do this they love you, try for them,

But my mind just continues to sink..

I needed help before this […]

7/17/2012 1 comment

One Reason

by U.N. Owen 5/21/2012

written by U.N. Owen

To the youth and adults who have decided to live, at least for today…

The person who makes your soul shiver.

The song that makes your ears quiver.

The food that makes your tongue dance.

The activity that lulls your mind into a trance.

The relative whose love warms your heart the most.

The pets about whom you brag and boast.

The responsibilities you prefer not to leave behind.

Their threads that your hands only can safely unwind.

The boulders you have yet to turn.

The bridges you prefer not to burn.

The safety and rhythm of scheduled routine.

The things you have not yet done or seen.

If you have one reason to stay, it may be […]

5/21/2012 2 comments