So, in two days, I will be graduating highschool, on the surface I’m happy and just as excited as my friends, and I am, don’t get me wrong, this is a huge step in my life but.. at the same time. I don’t know, there’s this little part of me that wants me to feel miserable.
I can’t wait to leave highschool and all the dicks in my school, I’ve seen enough of them to last me a lifetime. but I’m going to miss my friends, I don’t know when I’m going to see them again, cause some of them are moving away, like far away, and I’m just going to be stuck here, in a dead end job, doing nothing with my life. I want to go to college, but let’s face facts, I can’t afford to pay my way through college and neither can my parents. and I’m not the brightest student either. I’m a huge procrastinator and lazy as all hell.
Also, this may sound stupid, don’t worry I think it sounds stupid too but anyways… I’m lonely, I want to have someone to be with me. not like a friend. but like, be with me. I want a relationship I guess that’s what I’m trying to say.
but idk.
this is a pointless post but I guess I wanted to let all of this out, and since I can’t talk to my friends about this, I come here.
4 comments
Wow…you are really overwhelming yourself. Graduating high school is already huge…I wouldn’t think worrying about being in a relationship is something I’d conquer now.
I have always had a problem with anxiety and overwhelming myself, so I try to catch myself and slow down. Break it down into steps….start with just graduating. Be happy to leave jerks behind sad to leave friends; that’s enough on your plate over the next few days.
This quote someone told me when I was twenty has helped me so much over the years…
“The thousand mile journey begins with the first step.”
1.) Try to go on a friendly date once per month.
2.) Once per week tell someone (in the real world) that you’re lonely and looking for someone special.
I was in your same boat three years ago when I graduated high school. However, my three best friends and I went to separate universities. Two of which moved to a different state. But do I get sad about that? Yes. Am I ever going to see them again? Yes. Phone calls, texts, Facebook, and many other social media sites are made so that you can keep in contact with your friends. And I’m sure you will get back together over Christmas break or Thanksgiving.
I’m not sure how I can help you with finding someone to date. Don’t stress about looking for someone. The right person will come into your life when you least expect it!
I graduated high school last year(to the day actually) and honestly it does kinda suck, i dont see my friends as much if at all, but hey atleast i dont see the assholes either. I just finished my first year at city college and believe me, there are ALLOT of people looking for a boyfriend/girlfriend, so if you want to be in a relationship they are allot of people who also wamt that so thats the good news 🙂 all in all growing up sucks, but it gets better, stay strong and good luck 🙂