I was checking in on some of my suicide friends tonight and emailing them and as I was checking afterwords to see if any mail had came, I got an email that said, auto response.
I was kinda laughing thinking, that oh, jael must be out of the office or away from the computer.
Opened the message and it said,If you get this response, I have been sucessful in my attempt. Thank you for everything you have done, for being there and listening to me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Jael
She was a really helpfull girl. We got to emailing each other and at times when I just got really busy, she would take time out of her day to make sure I was ok. Tell me about what was going on in her life and would be sure I was doing fine.
I kind of knew she was going to go, I just never thought it would have been so soon.
If anyone needs to talk, email me. I understand suicide was her choice and I have to live with that.
But if anyone needs a friend or someone to listen, email me. I’ll always respond and care.
My email is brl.cents@gmail.com
Rest in peace Jael
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poor girl, even though she is “jai elle’ i am sure bullies called her “jail”.
I remember her. I didn’t know Jael was her real name. P
If she is gone I am sorry for your loss, and others who knew her *hugs* I didn’t know her.
I always want to play devil’s advocate in these situations though because without proof (like an obituary?) you really don’t know if she did it. She could have put that auto-response up, made an attempt and got locked up in hospital when it failed. Or maybe she just wanted to put her old life behind her and let her old pals think she’d done it even if she hadn’t?
Not trying to be insensitive or give false hope, just saying more proof is needed to be certain. I am perhaps a bit cynical after grieving the “death” of an internet friend years ago that turned out to be a hoax. I’ve never forgotten that.
+1 SadBk
I thought the same thing. “it’s possible x, y, or z happened…”
And now for a totally morbid and inappropriate stab at humor:
“Obits or it didn’t happen.”
This is one aspect of SP that makes me want to distance myself.
I don’t particularly enjoy the feeling associated with knowing that someone i’ve been exchanging internet comments with, has died. In fact, i particularly don’t enjoy that feeling.
@ clevername If that’s inappropriate then my sense of humor is sick and twisted too!
That bothers me too. I’ve talked to a few people who have told me goodbye, they’re going to go kill themselves… and when I don’t hear back from them, I don’t just automatically assume that they did it. I take the pollyanna approach: they probably had a catharsis and are now off living a wonderful life somewhere, no looking back. (yeah, I know, not likely… I don’t know why people are sometimes embarrassed to come back after a failed attempt? I mean, how many of us here have failed?! We get it. Maybe they do just want to start over in some way…) But with no proof either way I can think what I want.
Just like when a neighborhood cat disappears. Hit by a car, or found a loving home? I will assume the latter rather than mourn something uncertain. …living in fantasy is one of my coping mechanisms…
I’ll go online and have a look more.
Kind of was hoping the same thing as the last two commenters here.
🙂
Keep you posted.
Can’t say I have found anything, but I’m not to good at this.
Plus, we have to put into consideration that that have not been her real name, you know?
Yes, I pray to god she is still alive and doing well like some suggest here, but time and time again I emailed her and she always was mentioning her attemps and how she would keep trying. I would always try to convince her to stay, but no go. Or perhaps, it is a hoax, I guess we’ll never know.
Thanks to all who responded,
Blindaudio