lost

One thing everyone on this board has in common is we all know suffering, heartbreak and loneliness. I tried to commit suicide many many years ago, have done the drug and alcohol thing plus some other addictions. Suicidal thoughts rize up every now and then when times get hard. What I realized is I can’t do this alone. I don’t want to keep repeating the same mistakes over and over again. I have seen way to many young people commit that final act and seen them laying in their caskets. I have seen loved ones who have suffered because of suicides. My oldest son found his friend hanging in a shower. She hung herself because my nephew and her were fighting and he broke up with her. At 18 she did that. He was the same age. Everyone blamed him and he could never get over it. Took to cough syrup like it was candy and messed up his mind. Ended up in and out of jail. Getting beat up while in jail. Found alcohol and at 22 looked terrible with his red face from all the drinking. He finally committed a crime that put him in prison for 5 years. At least now he is sober. We go through suffering and some don’t handle it and turn to drugs or alcohol to medicate themselves. I know what that is all about. When I reached my breaking point, that was when I realized that I can’t do this alone anymore. I didn’t want to continue doing things my way. My way just messed things up. I humbled myself and gave the controls over to the one who created me. I am here for a purpose just like everyone else on this planet. We are not alone. The very one who created us knows our hearts so very well and loves us so very much. Hard to see sometimes but if we have our heads down looking at the ground we can never see whats up above in the beautiful sky. So amazing that the one who created the heavens and the earth hears our prayers even when we are walking in darkness. If you are at your breaking point, why not try His way, His truth and His life. You will never regret it.