masturbation ruined my life

Just to add a bit to what MichelleJ sed. Set a goal for yourself. Go a half day without touching yourself in that way. Find out what the triggers are that you may have to cause you to want to do this. If porn is involved or others things, cut them out. The battle is in your mind. It starts there and then flows into actions. Distraction is good. Make a strong effort in your mind to force yourself to do something different. Get out of yourself, go out and do a random act of kindness to someone. Small goals, small victories lead to bigger ones and then maybe you go a day or two. The first week is the hardest. Almost like quitting cigarettes. Chew gum to distract yourself. No alcohol or drugs as that will weaken your resolve. Keep telling yourself you can overcome this. If you slip and fall, then get right back up and keep trying. No self imposed guilt trips that never help. Pray! It really helps. If you do this and overcome this then you can apply this to other problems that might come up. The battle starts in your mind. It can either build us or break us by what we put in it. Garbage in and garbage out. Don’t be ashamed. You reached out and that is the first step.