Today I remember the life I had. Today I think of the posts I have read here. Today I rembember the people I have been a witness to in their exit.  Today I hope all people will be given the legal right to make the choice I have had to search the world for. Today I look back in sorrow and look forward in anticipation.  Today I wish for all, the lives they desire and the end they deserve. Today I am , if honest, a bit afraid.  Today I am  more sure than ever that what awaits me is better than what is behind […]
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Today i am accepting the fact masturbation ruined my life and i am tired of masturbating everyday is there anyone in the whole world who masturbate a lot i am very tired of doing it and i do not know how to stop this habit but i am just in shame today too much because i am very much tired of doing it and i do not want to do that anymore it is not stress reliever for me it is eating my life my body ruined because of masturbation i look very thin and i always use to be tired because of this habit […]
I feel sad. I’m 35, male and I hate myself today. No real reason…. or perhaps too many to list here. Am I depressed yes but today I do not care. I wish it were all over. If I had a gun I believe it would be easy but silly Canadian laws. I think the best way to do it (aside form a gun) is to run a hose form the tail pipe of my car to the window, lay back in the drivers seat and take a long long nap. I often hear of innocent people who get hurt and killed on the news…. […]
I suffer from PTSD, OCD, and bipolar II. I’m also a FtM transgender person. My father died in 2009; I was only 20 and was his next of kin and had to to everything relate to the burial.
It took a toll on me. I didn’t even tell my doctor until 2010, when he put me on antidepressants.
The medication works, for the most part. But sometimes, my depression creeps back up again. It did that two years ago. I had pills stashed, I was ready to do it…
But then an anonymous person commented on a blog post of mine. It was just the first public post […]
Today I picked up a knife and stroked the edge of it. It cut a small line into my fingertip. I asked myself why did you just do that? I didn’t know. I’m not usually suicidal and I definitely do not want to be. My cousin took his own life and it wrecked my family, hurting everyone and separating his mother and father. I guess the reason why was because the past weeks have been rough. Family life is hard because there are few moments of peace and quiet. Everyone is so angry at one another and they yell at me. In school I struggled. […]
Today was a fuck! I hated it. I give all, for making my parents happy, specially for my father. I want to give him everything perfect. Nevertheless the more I try, the worse it is. I’m about to finish with this damm life. I hate everything around me. Â I’m feeling more and more alone. The Day I finish with everything I’m sure they’ll just have to remember all this days to realize why I’m doing this. I just want to finish everything
wasted time… doing nothing… helping no one… being alone… was my life completely in vain? to me it seems that way… oh well… one day i will understand….
i don’t know why but i feel really happy today, im loving my life today and can’t think of a better time to end it…
why not now before things go bad again?
I don’t know what to do. A really close friend of mine has been depressed most of his life and has again threatened to take his own life today. He has been going through a particularly rough time lately. He is in his early 20s and has so much potential. Tonight I sat on the phone with him for almost 2 hours trying to talk him out of it. I have no way of getting to him tonight. At the end of the conversation he was a bit better and promised me he would wait until tomorrow.
I don’t know what to do, I don’t […]