My other half

The one person who ever thought anything of me left my side over a year and a half ago, my big brother.
I miss him oh so much!
He always had faith in me, no one else ever has.
He always knew I was a good person.
Everyone thinks I’m horrible and a piece of shit.
I don’t know what to do without him, all I want is to be with him again.
I will never be the same without him.
I lost myself when he died.
And I don’t think I’ll ever get myself back.
Should I just save myself the hurt and end it all now?