I’m bored with everything. I’ve snowboarded from helicopters, climbed many mountains, traveled and been to many places, and work as a molecular biologist. I should not feel the way I do. This should make me a fun and loving person, but instead I always feel empty and alone. I get a lot of attention from women, but nothing ever comes from it because I hate myself and the sadness pours from me. I can’t live like this. Happiness teases me and runs away. Nobody, not even joy wants to have anything to do with me.
I started taking drugs again to spice things up. 30 hits of LSD in the fridge. Nothing matters so why not escape this sad existence. I just wish I had someone to join me.
Just put me down. Anyone, please…
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drugs will never help any situation, no matter how dark. trust me from somebody who has seen plenty of ODs, throw the drugs away
You can’t really “OD” on LSD per se. But you can increase your chances for a bad trip with super high doses like 30 hits. You could take 20,000 hits and be fine physically. Mentally not so much though..
But yeah my friend. I know how you feel. I’ll probably end my life when I get the proper tools. Which is harder than it sounds. I’ve had a decent life I guess. I’m only 24 but my life is coming to a close. And that’s alright I guess.
i know im sorry i just meant drugs in general werent the best option, i know you cant OD on lsd i was just saying from a general drug perspective
I don’t think so. Liquor and drugs have been better friends to me than most people. If I didn’t have them I definitely would not be here. It’s only a matter of time before I get bored with that too. Once I have nothing left, it’s over. I’m over.
I agree. But sometimes psychedelics like LSD can give you a new perspective. I’m not recommending it though. It helped me in the past.
i guess i just dont understand as well as some other people who have done drugs and alcohol, i am younger and have only touched the surface of what drugs and alcohol can do, i am just trying to give advice based on what i see around me with other people
I’m not looking for a spiritual journey or a new perspective. I’m looking to prolong the inevitable. To prevent what I know has been coming my whole life. I’m almost ready. I always keep my eyes open for someone who is going to change my world. There isn’t anyone and I’m so close to the place I always feared most. What’s worse than wanting to die? Not wanting to die, but knowing that its coming. I want something/someone/myself to fix me. I can’t figure it out, I can’t sit on a park bench waiting for the answer to come my way, and no matter where I go there is never that special person who will be there for me. I’m burnt out on trying.
Yeah I’m burned out too. I’m not really sure what to say except that I think you came to the right place, aregularguy. Thanks for sharing a part of your story and welcome aboard.
I found my love and lost him to suicide. Now I’m nothing. Now I can relate. All I can think of is that I wish he would have taken my life too.