So how goes the day. I have recently been on holidays (May 28th to June something) and within the first two weeks of being back I was in the hospital twice. Once I admitted myself. Only stayed there for 71 hours and like 50 minutes(few minutes before my 72 hour hold was finished, and btw I went in voluntarily and they still put me on a form), the second time was a suicide attempt. I stuck my wrist into SUICIDAL EXPLICIT CONTENT. That time though I went in voluntarily and they didnt put me on a form. Odd indeed. Anyways only stayed there for about 4 days then I was released again. Its been a year since my last attempt before the most recent one. Ive been through all the therapy and pills. Still doesnt make a difference. For some people it does make a difference(so dont be discouraged from trying) but I mean, I dont really want to be happy. Anyhow I have noticed that before an attempt I goad myself into it. Usually it starts with planning for a future date and then it turns into well why not do it today. Then it turns into why not do it now. Then it ends up with me being in the hospital getting stitches or staples what ever the treatment of choice is. Well Ill stop here and keep it short so you people dont have to tire yourselves out.