Hi again.

Hi,

Of course I realise that I don’t want to die.  I just want everything to stop.  Or change, I don’t care.  I supposed I will create a list of “Things I don’t like about myself”.

1. I am very overweight.

2. I drink too much alcohol.

3. I can’t apply myself to anything

4. I can’t deal with anything that stresses me.

5. I am anxious and unable to form real friendships or relationships

6. I just want to stop!

Feelings of anxiety grip my chest, causing a wave of tension to travel both down to my legs and up through my back and neck to my face and the side of my head.  It sounds clichéd but then again I put that down to my self deprecating attitude.  I am hoping that the act of writing down these things will help me feel better.  Even if no one were ever to read them, I have told the internet!