Kill Me ( HUGE RANT! )

I CAN’T TAKE LIFE ANYMORE, NOT AT ALL. I WANT TO DIE, I WANT TO DIE SO BAD, BECAUSE MY EMOTIONAL TRAUMA IS ALREADY KILLING ME. I FEEL A HOLE INSIDE OF ME, AND I CANT FILL IT. AND IS ALL MY FUCKING BROTHER’S FAULT. I WOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN HAVING THESE THOUGHTS IN THE FIRST PLACE, IF HE DIDN’T MAKE ME. ALL OF THE TIMES HE INSULTED ME, HARMED ME, KILLED ME, IS TOO MUCH. HE IS THE REASON EVERYTHING SUCKS IN MY LIFE. MY PARENTS WOULD OF NEVER DIVORCED, I WOULD OF NEVER HAD A BROKEN MIND,  I WOULD BE MUCH MORE HAPPY, KIRIN WOULD STILL BE MY FRIEND, MY FAMILY WOULD OF HAD MORE MONEY NOT WASTED ON THAT **** AND… EVERY FUCKING THING IS HIS FAULT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL BECAUSE HE’S A RETARDED FUCKASS WHO’S OUT TO GET ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

….and now i don’t know whats worse, the fact that i want myself dead, or him murdered.