I feel like a zombie
Going thru the same routine
Sleeping as much as I can to avoid life
Burning to make the emotional pain go away
These thoughts go thru my head
I can’t even tell no one
I’ll be sent to “the nut house where cutters go”
There is no help
July 2013
an utterly pass within a past,
is a mark upon the dark,
we the shadows are a curse amongst the living to the worst.
we have forever been in the dark,
a true face is never a mark,
a life within a vessel,
turned to dark,
upon the light we run to the abyss.
by our master we our controlled.
to the fashist to be molded upon a shadow against the light.
we are forever hidden.
never to be seen.
only a glimpse of our passing we forever are cursed as the shadow people.
we take a glimpse of you while you cannot […]
im supposed to be happy
why am i not
im on vacation
i have a girl that loves me
i have a comfy life
why do i still feel like this
why does it come back
it leaves for a bit then comes back again
im tired of it
all of it.
thoughts of suicide have crept in slowly but surely over the past months
fuck
i dont know man
My life has had good times and bad times, grew up in a violent household, but get on well with both parents now. Â Average poor kid. Â Older brother younger sister. Â I have always been rubbish at relationships though, always pick the wrong person but I have come to the conclusion there is no right person. Â First guy just stopped loving me. Â He said he loved me but he didn’t. Â I could tell. Â Second guy, we had two kids then he slept with my next door neighbour. Â Third guy, we have a kid, but things aren’t good. Â This man that I feel like I do everything […]
I’m just your average teenage blogger, I’m average height, weight ect.
Nothing perfect about me, I hate myself, a lot.
I mean I shouldn’t there’s nothing really wrong with me, but I guess my problems are mine and they affect me.
I have been bullied since third grade, hasn’t stopped until now, tenth grade, because I’ve changed, boobs, bum, legs, waist you know how girls grow up, probably why they stopped teasing me.
But the damage has been done, every “you’re fat” “you have no friends” “I hope you die” “I’m coming for you” enough to drive you into fear and hiding, right? I started cutting about three months […]
I have been cutting a lot lately. I have been just cutting on my wrists but then I ran out of room so now im cutting on my thigh. I wasn’t cutting to deep on my wrists but on my thighs I’ve been cutting deeper. How can I properly take care of my cuts? What kind of things will I need to take care of the cuts?
As this blade run across my arms
Feels like i am leaving my pain
There is no other exit
From this unwanted insane
It’s coming out of my skin
Blood is flowing
Pressure is building on my vein
Tears are falling
My skin is tearing apart
Separating me from my pain
But inside i am screaming loud
Oh someone please stop this rain
I am left alone here
Living in this hell
All i see is blood everywhere
I want to get out of this shell
I haven’t used nail paint from a long time
But see how red are my nails
Why am I still here.
Ive seen alot of life stories on here so i figured Id try to write mine.I was born in Canada. We had to move a lot (stereotypical beginning of a broken home lol) for my dad’s job. I guess when they first moved my mom cheated on my dad and thus I was born. We moved from there back to the homestead of flatland Illinois then to New Jersey. My dad was a raging alcoholic (once again very stereotypical). I remember we were supposed to go visit family friends and my dad came home about 14 hours after we were supposed to leave for Pennsylvania […]
If you want to get out of the dark patch of Depression. Go to your nearest mental health centre. For mental mind test for clinical medication. You would be surprised at all the tablets you could take. Don’t worry about God. The Mental Health System will protect you always from the terrible suicide threat in your life. Phone the ambulance. And take your self to Hospital. And Get tested today, for Mental Health now. Take Care and all the Best. From Blessing of the Mental Health System. Take a chance, and get help today.
Hi, Im Nate. Im recently single and in college. Im 22 years old.
Ive been in therapy since i was 11, heavily medicated and de-motivated. Ive been abused verbally and physically, not sexually. I dont ever seem to think about it though. It never seemed to have affected me as much as more trivial things.Ive had some hard things to deal with but nothing like a lot of things Ive read on here.
I just got out of a 2 1/2 year relationship. It was just another […]
I cant sleep….One of those nights where Im up aimlessly searching the internet listening to the same song over and over (johnny cash-hurt). I went on my old myspace page….dont know what the fuck happened with the site but everything is gone except my photos and I was going thru them and Its amazing how time breaks people down….. I look NOTHING like my former self….I look tired, stressed and worn out now. I have pictures with old friends and I cant help but feel so much regret ….. I want to trade places with the Me in the photo…..I just want to get away […]
so here is my story…
it all started when i was born. i guess.. my parents where poor.. my father was a drunk.. year went on and i was a normal child. UNTIL… i was 6.. my brother started this weird thing.. tried to get me to go spy on my sister.. and then put a belt buckle into my bottom. i ran out of the bedroom crying told my mother.. she comes out with you better tell your father.. i remember our home had alot of people there having stuff done to it.. i was young. i new something to do with the septic tank.. […]
I’m so sick of being surrounded by people that are just so goddamn content with their shitty, pointless little lives. I don’t get it. How do they do it?
Are they faking it?
Are they delusional?
Are they lying to themselves?
Are they just stupid?
These are the only options I can come up with, so I guess the vast majority of the population fits at least one of these categories. I wish I did, but I’m too smart, too aware, and too realistic, and therefore miserable.
I’m working a summer job in a warehouse, and man does it suck. It’s a shit job. And to get through it, I just […]
My mom thinks I should do normal things that “happy” people do. she doesnt understand how IMPOSSIBLE it is to do those things when your mind is constantly working against you. I can smile like nothing is wrong and in my head that voice says “why the fuck are you smiling for?” I could watch my favorite movie and the voice says “you know that its not reality right? in real life you are a fucking loser”…..In my head Its like two voices. the one I use for typing and writing and basic communication then its the inner critic who points out all the flaws, […]
Hello everyone. I just wanted to take a moment while i had a little peace. about myself to say that i am doing okay for this day. it was just a few months back that i was seriously ready to take a bullet to the brain. can’t really explain the things i was feeling at the time i just know i was exhausted from life and ready to go. i been through some shit in my life maybe not as much as some peoples but more than most. i had to struggle to see that people can make us all feel shitty and make us […]
I hate my sperm and egg donor for creating me! I wish they would be subjected to everything that they have subjected me to by breeding me. What a nightmare and an anguish they are to me. I am with adoptive home now.  I pray my breeders will suffer in hell for the lifetime of agony they’ve caused me. What makes a person feel, that they have a right to be a sperm or egg donor? Why does a person feel that they have the power to create another life? A new life which is not consenting? A new life which may know nothing but pain for all […]
I scare myself with these thoughts. I don’t want to hurt anyone…I can’t. I don’t have that in me. But what I do have in me is the sincere yearning to hurt myself, even to die. I want to disintegrate into nothing and be gone from everything. I don’t want to feel this way. I have so much to love, so much that could hold me here on Earth and keep me from going 6 feet under. But this feeling keeps me from thinking about those things which I love when I get this way.
My little brother is 13. He’s so wonderful. I would do […]
I remember what I used to be like…. It was so long ago it seems… If I could see myself now and then nothing would match I don’t even look the same. I don’t know what started me down this dark road but I no longer see the light. I remember feeling happy but I don’t remember what being happy feels like. I cant focus anymore my thoughts are trapped in a cage with no opening. I cant even read a book and remember simple details about the book or even what I just read. Now I just feel like a rock on the side […]