Why does everybody tell me they’re sorry, sorry for what!? I’m pretty sure it’s not your fault I’m fucked in the head beyond repair. I feel like i have to scream at them “don’t tell me you’re sorry, cause i know, o i know, you’re not” it’s bullshit people should just fuck off i don’t even know what people are saying to me anymore, ugh everything’ll be fine when the meds come i’ll finally be able to od 🙂
i hear ya. i get where you’re coming from. they’re pity ain’t guna fix anything so you just get more mad eh? me too.
ugh yes, it’s absolutely ridiculous, no one even gets it because they’re stuck in a world of light and i am sitting in the dark trying to fight my way out but huh it’s not happening, that’s why i can’t wait to see the meds, take em all and go to school get rowdy and fucking die would be the best thing ever
exactly. nobody understands what its like to be in a fucked up mind thats too broken or too far gone. its a lonely place. i totally get you. what meds are we talkin about here?
so far they are only gonna start me off on citalopram but are thinking if not that then maybe fluvoxamine, they haven’t said much else and mum won’t tell me anything either.
hmm alright. my first anti D i tried was citalopram actually. it worked for what i had back then. im guessing you’re still in high school eh? well im going to get off SP for the night but i’ll be back on tomorrow and we can keep chatting if you’d like. its a tough road. but i have more hope for you than you’d think possible. im not sure why but i feel really good about your future. talk soon.
yea i am still in high school got one more year next year but i don’t see life lasting that long, everyone thinks i am too young to have some of these thoughts, i have school soon but we have the computer room for about an hour, yea it’d be good to keep chatting.
Yeah the pity shit really gets on my nerves as well. I don’t want your fucking pity all I want is understanding but that’s not happening anytime soon around this way. I don’t feel sorry for myself I’ve accepted my reality even though its fucked up I’ve accepted it and I will end it. I don’t want people feeling sorry for me if that’s all they have to offer then they can take that and shove it.