i do not belong, in this world full of love, it’s easy to think things could all get better. trapped in the soul of the devil, consumed by his love for death it turns to be mine. the blade hungers for my skin, i hunger for the feel, it bites me deep and i smile with enjoyment. i can no longer cut as mother searches my body for new wounds of hate, the ashamed look in her eyes, WHY, WHY DO YOU CARE, you never cared for i, till you saw i wanted to die, none did. so instead i turn to pills lots of different pills, none of which are noticed to be gone, i’m going to die and it will be at my own will, care for me you know you do not, pretend is all so the thought of me dying won’t linger on your mind. i hate this world, it hates me, one more pill, one more pill, this will be the end of me.
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The smell of air, helps. I live in the country, Hudson Valley, NY. I’m sorry if you live in an urban environment, as it can be depressing with all the people and smog. No fresh air. I hope you understand I’m being clever and trying hard at it for you. If I could help you get a breath of fresh air, I would. I know how you feel; I think. One person never truly knows quite how the other feels, although at some times in life, you do truly feel the same; and those moments of “epiphany” (which they truly are) because you and someone feel the same and both KNOW IT. You are capable of feeling that with people, and that type of thing will make you realize you DO BELONG. You will realize the struggle you are going through now, was there for a good reason; I know it’s hard to fathom now. No matter what it is, the pain numbs with time, and then eventually will not exist; if you choose to face it and take it on. <not just hopeful rhetoric. <3
i live in New Zealand not much of an urban place but still pretty bustling with annoyance from too much noise, i try leave but i am only sixteen and family don’t let me go anywhere alone anymore, i am looking forward to having these feelings not exist but if it doesn’t come soon, i may no longer be.