I have to write this down or let anyone know, it just has to be off my chest.
I feel so goddamn lonely, like nobody really gives two shits about me. I know it’s not true, yet I can never seem to shake the feeling. It just seems like everyone forgets about me, like I’m not important to anyone. My friends are all just moving on so fast and forgetting about me, while I’m still stuck in the pain and grief over my brothers suicide. They don’t understand me but also never seem to try. They’re all leaving me behind and I’m so scared. I have nobody to share my emotions with, or how I feel.
You know, loneliness is such an intense emotion. It overpowers me whenever it hits me just how lonely I am. How I have nobody to turn to, nobody to talk to.
I’m sorry.
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I usually feel just as lonely except sometimes I don’t feel that lonely when I’m around my friends and family…especially when I’m around my sister
it doesnt have to be true, only the feeling does. nothing is more true than raw emotional feeling. especially that of pain, sadness, and lonliness
I really feel for you. I’ve never been so alone, i don’t have any friends and my family dont care. I sometimes feel like a ghost, like im invisible. Its awful! I wish i could help you 🙁
I am sorry that you feel so lonely right now. Often family/friends don’t have the skill sets to really give us the help we need when we need it, and nobody truly understands the pain that another person is going through, even if they know that person well. It is very likely that nobody you know actually realizes how much pain you are in. Have you thought about therapy to help you through your brother’s suicide?
Thank you, all 4 of you, for responding. I really appreciate it. I am in therapy for 8 months now, going in for a talk of an hour every week. It does help a little, it makes me feel less crazy. But still, the only thing that could ‘fix me’ would be my brother coming back.
I’m glad you are seeing someone, it is nice to have an objective third party around to help. I am very sorry about your brother’s suicide. You may not realize it but I think by posting on here you are helping people. I can only speak for myself but when I’ve been suicidal in the past it is so hard to realize that the people you leave behind will suffer immensely because of your passing. You lose sight of it because you are so caught up in your own pain. If even one person reads your post and it hits home that they are not alone, that people love them, and they will hurt those loved ones by committing suicide and they change their minds then you have done some serious good in the world. I think you’re pretty important (and brave) and I don’t even know you. 🙂