Why is it that every opportunity I’m given, each person that wants my time, wants me in their life has no effect on the way I feel.
I should be happy to get the opportunity to live in the big smoke and study the art of theatre the magic of dance,
I should be happy that someone wants to be with me and only me, I should be happy, I should but that’s not me.
My body and mind have changed again, back to the depths I thought I had crawled up and out of , but this time I’ve fallen further.
Its like I’m drowning under a layer of ice, I can see the top, trace it with my fingertips but there’s no way for me to get there, the way is blocked.
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you just need the right tool to break that ice. im jealous of you. i really am. you’re studying theatre and dance. would love to be doing that. i have so much confidence in you that you’ll claw your way through the ice and breathe again though. i know it.
Yea I know what you mean
Don’t worry! You got yourself out of the first one now you just have to do te same with the other. Honey it gets better, I know it c:
Stay beautiful <3
numb .. acting out of habit?
and no pleasure from dancing at all? spring of muscles, rolling from one move to the next? A shame. I dance only in the broadest definition of the word.. but I love the fluidity of motion and the ease that comes with a trained body.
Maybe not love.. but physically content.. I hope you feel that at some point.