I have deep depression. I feel suicidal from time to time. I have stopped taking zoloft for personal reason. I am waiting for the day that I lose control and take action. But, I want to know what do you do when you are suicidal?
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Honestly, if you really feel like you are about to, you need to tell someone who loves you. You will end up in the hospital. I’ve gone through it twice, where I was so close, I had to tell someone “I’m about to kill myself”, and I got “help”. It’s a long road. You have to fix you. Meds can help, I don’t recommend Paxil, after you stop it, it really really really sucks. But you have to find a way to make yourself happy, AGAIN. You can do it. Stupid little random conversations with people you don’t know, gas stations, grocery stores, that helps. Random new friends, they help. People on here, we help.
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Can you perhaps try to articulate the “complex reasons” you “suffered from deep depression” after graduating from college? Can you at least identify factors that may have) ‘precipitated’ the deep depression (after college) …
Some people do find the ‘transition’ to life after college rather stressful…
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Thank you.
I had planned to commit suicide after graduate from college many years ago. It is because i have misunderstanding and problems with family. My parents always argue and it makes me sick. Also, they only focus on my academics result, which makes me feel grudged. i want to make them feel guilty and regretted. So, I planned to commit suicide many years ago.
However, after I graduated from college, I discovered I don’t have courage to follow my plan and jump off from the building. For a year, I cried heavily and I had uncontrolled repetitive thoughts about my past life. I couldn’t even watch a job hunting website. I felt very helpless and hopeless.
Then, all my classmate from college got a job successfully, but, I didn’t. I isolated myself from them and I just stay at home for a year.
I guess my depression is resulted from my jobless for over two years and my perception toward life. I have been jobless for two years, which makes me feel very ashamed and guilty. I always think why I should hold on. I should follow my plan and jump off the building. I am regretted for studying in college too. It seems I am just a waste of space.
I have no future and I don’t know what should i do now.
Yes, I am so close to giving up. I tried to tell my suicidal thoughts to professionals or suicide hotline. But, none of them really care. I told my family, they called me crazy, stupid and they are angry. Who can I tell anymore? I am waiting for the day that I really lose control. So, I can jump off from a building or jump over the sea.
Hi Jasmine 🙂
Your situation sounds really unpleasant. It sounds like other people have a lot of influence over your life, and how you live it?
Yes, many people have influence over my life. I spent many years to please other people. But, I knew I can’t satisfy all of them anymore. However, it seems I lost myself. I don’t know how can I live it. There is only one option to me, which is to die.
Is that what you want? You want to end your life?
Try to find a better way than jumping off a building. I’ve seen more than a couple spinal injuries from 30-50 ft falls amongst other injuries. Just means you survive with chronic pain, incontinence or any other issue arising from spinal cord damage.
I imagine if you can get high enough.. the chances or surviving are lessened.. also depending on what you hit but.. it’s too random for me.
1 bullet to the head is better than jumping off a high building although it would be a great experience before dying..
Guys… I don’t think she was asking for method advice (though cautionary facts are always good to post).
Thanks muspelhem. Yes, I am thinking shall I give up my life. But, I just wondering if there is another option.
Re Roak:
I tried to stand on the 10st floor and look down. I have no courage to jump off. If I really need to die, I may use overdose method.
Re RebeLsInParadise, I don’t have a bullet.
🙂 I hope you find some way of getting a good life.
What I do when I’m suicidal, which is daily by the way, is go to bestgore.com and watch all the suicide videos. 🙂 &P.S I’m not depressed, but I’m still suicidal sooo
When I’m feeling suicidal I obsessively read about methods, retie my noose, tie it to the ceiling support in my room, cry for hours, edit my suicide note, binge, cry some more, contemplate hanging myself, cry even more, sleep. This cycle usually repeats for an upward of 6 days.