I’ll put on a smile today just so others won’t cringe at my pain. I guess that’s life.
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I’ll put on a smile today just so others won’t cringe at my pain. I guess that’s life.
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Sorry this is the case. Those that are sensitive to your pain will see it in your eyes even if you are smiling. The first and only time I mentioned killing myself, they told me to quit being stupid. At 42 now, decades later, can’t say I feel all that much smarter….
You don’t always have to be happy, it’s okay to let someone see the real you and know the real you, it helps to have someone to rant to, try it
Idk where the misconception comes from, that it’s not ok or “normal” to be happy on the outside and still depressed on the inside. I think it’s perfectly normal and I try not to fight feelings of happiness wherever they are most present. I mean.. What are we trying to prove by showing the world we are angry, sad, or confused all the time? Some people can be very stuck in their ways and they don’t reach beyond their own depression to embrace feelings of joy and contentment.
I’m in real pain 24/7 but I’m always cracking jokes and making people smile. There isn’t anything wrong with it, my long term (untreated) depression mixed with a sense of humor creates a very interesting personality that attracts others.
All in all..looks can be deceptive… And that’s ok!! 😉
@RealTalk You have a knack for making people smile, never stop!
@OP Keep smilin’ and soon enough you’ll have something in your life that actually brings you cheer, ok?
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You’d think we’d think you’re happy if we didn’t know better… and maybe some would. And i don’t mean this to upset, but… it’s not as hidden as you seem to think (at least not to me), though it’s not exactly obvious either. Maybe i just have a knack for seeing through fake smile masks. I’ve spent much of my life surrounded by them. I would rate your “smile mask” pretty high, though. It’ll probably fool most people… and you’ll probably find that effect very useful. I’ve heard that smiles can be just as contagious as yawning, perhaps even more.
Pretty girls shouldn’t have to hide behind a fake smile
@jswissman I hate it how people overlook it when others talk about killing themselves. It’s like they think if they shove it off and ignore it you’re feelings will stop. Nobody took me very seriously when I’d talk about it either and that didn’t turn out so well. I think that’s what I’m most scared if though is growing up and still living with this depression inside. I’m only 18 and moving to college in 2 weeks, I just really hope things turn around for me there..
@people_do_care I used to show people how I really felt, I never smiled if it wasn’t from the heart. But after a while of that nobody would stick around. Nobody wanted to be around someone so upset all the time. Just like happiness is contagious depression can be too. So people just leave. I can’t talk about how I really feel to anyone because I can’t stand to lose any more people from my life.
@realtalk30 I never said it wasn’t okay to be depressed on the inside and appear happy outside, it’s just the fact that it thoroughly sucks to constantly have to hide your emotions until they build up so much all you can do is scream and cry all alone because you can’t tell anyone.
@clevername what you said somehow made me think of times when I’m with people, fake smiling it up, and I see a complete stranger, just looking at me. And I can tell that they see through it. But they give a half hearted smile and turn away. I wonder how different things would be if those people would say something..
@kindalostkid thank you:3 lol I don’t think anybody should have to.