Just saying goodbye

I feel numb just all over me… I hate it i hate it all. I lost all will to fight and live in this life anymore. She seen me ball my eyes out and beg for her not to go… But she left, I feel all alone now all i want to do is just disappear. Can i do the, am i aloud to do that, will i do that? Yes i might. after i get my car here putt my 2 weeks in and disappear never come back never be seen again. leave my cell phone and laptop here with a letter saying goodbye…