conversation with myself

its an idea ive been toying with for a while, am i the only one that talks to myself in my head? and gets answers? not like imaginary people or anything…? anyway ive wanted to have a proper convo with myself and i feel the need to write it out, here seemed like a good place, here goes nothing.
P: well this isnt weird at all, talking to yourself on a public forum, way to get all that exceptance you want you muppet.
c: well im not really talking to myself im talking to you, meah acceptance is over rated
p: i am you, i am everything, there is no you without me, its an us, so yeah your talking to yourself, who are you trying to kid, i know you, i am you i see your thoughts i see how much you yearn for their acceptance, fucken dog at his masters heal hoping for a pat on the head, weak col, realy, if i could id beat you up for being such a fucking ****** sometimes
c:but even you see the difference, you yourself said “there is no you without me, its an us” admiting theres a devide. fuck you, you see what you want to see, youre wrong they do accept me you ****. you do beet me up, every hour of every day, you just do it where it cant be seen by others
p:whatever dude, your still mentally a spastic, wether its a me or an us, your still fucked up, hahaha so whys ur inbox empty, and yeah i know that because i watch you check it every two minutes, dispite having your phone set to alert you when one comes in, mabye the phones wrong yeah yeah dont even say it i see it here in your head you know as well as i do that you dont believe that. oh come on i dont beat you up, im merely keeping your bullshit in check, im reality to your namby pamby fairytales.
c:mental spastic… well… cant argue there infareness, tho to be honest ive you for half a brain like, no wonder im mentally defective. its empty because i answered all the emails, well most, one or two left nothing much to reply to, how long do you think it takes people to write replys, some people do have a life you know. you dont beet me? you serious??? you push me further and further every fucking day, you show me what it would be like to step infront of cars, to jump from every building we pass, to hang from every beam, to lie in a bathtub with vodka painkillers and a knife, you comment every minute, trying to break me, wanting me to do it, pushing me to the edge, throwing the worst conotations onto everything, tainting everyhting good and you say you dont push??? fuck you!!!
P:jesus your such a petty ***** sometimes, ooo ill have some beer and hate on the other me, grow the fuck up, fucking child, as useless now as you were back then. haha you dont get it do you? im not dragging you down, im the trade off, you think a mind like yours comes for free? you can outthink most average people and think what? it comes with no lashback? ***** please for a smart guy your so fucking thick its paradoxical. haha thats what your going with? i can read your mind, even you dont believe that they are just buissy. Thats not really pushing you, all im doing is showing you what you can do to get rid of me, ***** im here forever, aslong as you live im here, no matter what you do, where you go or who you get to help i will always be here, you may be smart but ive access to everything, your thoughts, your subconcious is my open book, your mind is mine to fuck as i please, and you? YOU? WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU HAVE, YOU ARE NOTHING, YOU THINK YOU FIGHT BACK? YOU THINK YOU HOLD YOUR MOTHERFUCKING OWN? YOU CAN BARELY HOLD AGAINST ME! YOU THINK YOU CAN TAKE ME YOU INSIGNIFICANT SHIT???? I BARELY TRY AND YOU STRUGGLE? WHEN I ATTACK YOU BREAK AND COWER IN A FUCKING BALL IN YOUR OWN HEAD YOU PATHETIC DOG, THE ONLY REASON I DONT END YOU IS BECAUSE IT WOULD END ME TOO, AND IM HERE TO TORMENT YOU FOREVER YOU ****, YOU FUCKING HEAR ME??? YOUR NEVER GETTING AWAY FROM ME! EVER!!
c: back when? so you think im above average? pretty much the only nice thing youver ever said to me. mate we share a head… SO STOP FUCKING SHOUTING i already know it alright, i know i cant stand against you so stop it just stop.
p: back when? oh where to start? i think we both know, how about that time with your brother, when he-
c:SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT THAT, we agreed along time ago to never talk, and repress that!
p:ooo touchy, how about that time when you tried to give tyourself skin cancer as a child, man that was funny to see you being so thick, or that time with that belt you couldnt work out properly. or that time with the suicide note, or the love letter, now that. that was quality. GOOD, AND DONT YOU EVER FUCKING FORGET THAT YOU TURD.
c:man i was five when i tried skin cancer, what did you exspect. the other stuff… fuck yourself.
p:oh wow… so eligant, gee no wonder you cant right a fucking story
c: i can write one you dick, i… im just suffering from writers block
p:hahaha writers block? ***** you cant write another word in that, and yeah i know it brings you down, i know it makes you beet yourself up, saves me the trouble of doing it, makes you look for the knifes to cut, but of course your too weak to do it arnt you, wana hear a secret? come close, im the one that blocks the flow, i take your muse from you when i want just to see you fall, why? because i can, your so weak its disgusting, one little story you cant wrtie and everything is over? fucken fag
c:i may be weak, i may be a piece of shit on the bottom of your shoe, but im you, your ment to help me, you are ment to protect me and incourage me, why do you hate me? why do you do this to me, why cant you help me for once in our lifes?
p: because you are too weak to live! i will never help something so disgusting, welcome to hell *****, im your fucking personal devil, your mine for eternity, even if you you try and kill yourself ill come with you, ill hound you through every afterlife never stopping because you deserve hell you worthless shit, i wont stop untill your completely broken, then do you know what ill do? ill fix you up so i can break you again
c:… *breaks down and huddles in a corner wishing he was dead*
p:*sneers in disgust” looks like i win again ******