I want to find the one person who I could trust with my secrets, my warped twisted secrets. Bearing my soul completely, I could only imagine. I have nobody that I could even tell if I was down, never mind any of what is clawing it way out of my mouth. I had one person, she knew my little secrets, she held me when I cried, she listened to the little I felt I could tell her. I regret it completely… I should never have told her any of that, I gave her the knife, she took it and twisted it into my back.
As pathetic as it is, I miss her, she was the only one I could run to. I wish I was blind, I want to forget everything she did and restart. She doesn’t seem to regret her decisions, that is like a slap to the face. I wasted way to much time being blind to her, so why do I want to forget it all?
I sometimes wish I didn’t owe her as much as I do.. I really owe her a lot, she stayed up all night with me when I feared the monsters that creep in my dreams. I owe every breathe I have taken since I met her. I don’t know what made her decide I wasn’t worth it anymore… I really regret everything… I wish she hadn’t left me out in the cold…
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Truth is the only person you can trust 100% with deep dark secrets is the person in the mirror….I learned the hard way never give anybody a weapon that can be used against you….what may seem like a great friendship now can end with great bitterness towards each other where secrets are just bullets in a gun…..If you give people bullets to use….they will use them when they deem necessary….. apparently this has happened to you as you’ve written….hopefully you’ll take this experience as a lesson and not repeat this mistake ever again….