that big question whether you going to stop cutting but then you think about it you really don’t want to stop the cutting because it’s like something that has became you
and we all understand that it’s dangerous but the thing is we don’t want to be reminded what’s going to happen, thats why we do it because we already know what the risk is.
but the biggest question i have is are we ever gonna stop cutting? why is it that we feel so deeply into cutting and have to get into arguments over it? is it worth the cutting and make our parents upset or is it worth to have our parents happy and just live with the scars we already have? i find it hard to concentrate if i haven’t cut in the last two weeks so that leads me to cut again which isn’t cool it hurt the people around us.
so how are we going to cope? how are we going to quit?
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You know what? I was going to post this the other day, but i forgot:
You should try peppers. Eat a jalapeño straight, and see how you feel. Bite into it slowly, chew it all up (discard the stem), analyze the flavor and let it sting and burn. And be careful not to touch your eyes or privates with pepper juice still on your fingers.
Peppers won’t leave scars, but they can sure give you a little blast of a pain rush. Just try not to overdo it… and seek milk and/or cheese if the heat is too much for you. Might also want to keep a paper towel or other tissue nearby for nose and eye leakage.
First off, applause. 2 weeks is really great.
Second, do you want to stop, or are others saying you should? When people get forced to stop it’s only temporary, because actually stopping is a very big commitment.
Some days cutting is all you can do, whether or not your friends think it’s ugly or your parents don’t approve (it drove mine absolutely nuts!) — at the very least, better than dead, right?
I guess I ask only because I tend to leave really long, overly-detailed comments.
I have a feeling I am far older than you, but in the past year I have resurrected the cutting habit of my younger years. As an adult I do it much differently. I wash the area with alcohol or simply soap and water. Usually my thighs where they are less likely to be seen in everyday life. I hide this at all costs. Though I am quite scarred at this point.
I have been trying to make very tiny superficial cuts with an exact-o knife. As hard as it was i abandoned the rotary cutter. After I feel that I have sufficiently calmed myself I clean and dress the wounds. I find the act of caring for my wounds to be therapeutic. I become vulnerable, and the ritual of taking care of my wounds puts me back into control.
But, I would always advise that no cutting is the safest cutting. Only you can decide if you want to quit and find a healthier outlet. I wish I could stop, and I will be good for several weeks, but even now, right this minute, I desperately want to cut so I can feel the release.
It’s probably never worth it, but it’s scary how something like cutting can feel so absolutely necessary for survival. I hope you quit and stay quit. I’m working on that myself. I hope happiness find you in the near future.
thank you all and i might just try that pepper thing sounds like a challenge and my family want’s me to stop because they dont liken it but i understand why they dont but the thing is i dont want to stop it’s bugging me now by not doing it and its terrible but thank you guys for so much help especially the pepper thing i would hope all of you are happy some time in the future