Today I’m going to try to kill myself. If I die I die if I live I live. I don’t care about my life anymore. My sister and my dad are mad at me. My sister said me being depressed isn’t an excuse for me to “not take life seriously”. This morning I was so upset because my dad yelled at me and I started to realize that he doesn’t care about me. When he yells at me he doesn’t care about my feelings or what I think.He’s a physically and mentally abusive person and get’s mad very easily. I’m sorry but I can’t live like this; I feel like I’m losing my mind little by little. Just in case I do die I want to be sure to say goodbye to everyone I know before then.Maybe I should try to kill myself tomorrow instead. I can’t wait that much longer. I want my life to be done already.
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Hey, may I ask how old you are? I know the feeling of losing ones mind. I believe I was recently defined as a monster and it makes me wanna throw up. I fucked up to say the least but it doesn’t matter. You feel like talking for a while? How long have you been depressed?
Coming from me this probably sounds very hypocritical but if I recall you are under 18…. I think you need to wait until you’re at least 20 ….you haven’t seen what life is really like yet…hell you could grow up and want to live forever…but for now you’re too young to have a full view on life….you just have the teenagers view which is really an illusion…. I’m not saying when you become an adult things will be extraordinary but as a teen you just don’t have the full view of things in order to make a fully informed decision …. so your sister and dad are assholes ….I know its hard but please just try to cope with them until you become an adult…. My mom was abusive too but I made it to 22 for all that’s worth…. don’t mind your sister she’s speaking from the dumbass POV that most of society has and shouldn’t be taken seriously….just please hold off until you are grown …. enjoy what little bit of childhood you possibly can while you can…. I know everything isn’t great right now but just try to make it to being an adult….once you get there then you can do whatever you feel is best once you have a full view of what life is like…
@Limbo94 I’m 14 I’ve been depressed for around a year. I want to express myself but at the same time I don’t like talking about my problems because I feel misunderstood and it doesn’t help me that much.
That’s when I started feeling shitty, I’m now 19. Started studying towards a masters degree in computer science recently. It have only gotten worse by the years. I won’t say that things will work out for you cause I can’t really know that. I get feeling misunderstood, I can’t make you tell me but if you do I’ll do my best trying to understand. 🙂
@Limbo94 Thanks
You alive?
oh fuck! Please be alive!
@ahannah123
It’s worth pointing out that you’re very unlikely to succeed. Statistically, I would say that if you were attempt suicide today or tomorrow, you would have less than a 10% chance of succeeding; moreover, after failing, you would likely end up in a drastically worse situation then you’re currently in.
If nothing else, do not attempt it for these reasons. You are VERY unlikely to succeed. Suicide is neither simple nor easy, mentally or physically.
Being 14 doesn’t mean you’re unjustified in being depressed; what is does mean, however, is that many of the problems you’re currently facing will disappear at a later time. You say you have problems with your family. Obviously, once you’re an adult (18) you won’t have to deal with them anymore. Other problems that seem impenetrable now may likewise dissolve a few years into the future.
Is there anyone you can talk to your problems about? A cool uncle, a guidance counselor? If nothing else, try to vent a bit here on SP. With some support you may be able to get through your problem. Even if you can’t resolve them, you can endure them.
@Limbo94 I’m still alive
@limbo94 don’t overreact she’s probably just busy or something
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I hope your alive, and get help, i know, coming from us its hypocritical but you dont deserve to die, you still have a chance to get better. tho if your going, or gone… then god speed and i hope you end up somewhere better
jesus talk about a cluster of comments at once lol
I have a “father” like that. I hope you are okay now.
I hope you are still with us…………………..