school:machine of insanity

School was the worst time of my life with constant bullying.i had so much anxiety that i felt i was dying from inside.diagnostic with cronic depresion because i have it sinve 15 i am 18 and iam still depressed.my parents didnt understamd through what i was passing.i had so much amxiety i waked up and puke .everything i eat i puke it.i was white as milk.dying slowly.when i could make it in my school for so much bullying i changed.but in my new school i was so depressed and sow low.i didnt make any friends.and when i did they where skinheads.they introduce thos ideas that i didnt believe but i was so alone i need someone.juat someone.but i was beeeing aomething i was not.later on i was wearing cut hair.bomber etc.i got myself into many fights but in mmy interior i knew that was wrong.months later i left the group with seroius bullying from everyone.from the side of the skinheads for leaving tje band and from the side of yhe rest of studenta for beeng one of them.that was the hardest time im my life.i just didnt want to live no more.whrn i went to school i passed the streets without looking to my sides so a car maybe crashes me.i got seroius addicted to weed because of my constant puking.i said it in other posts.now im 18 i am in the university i still have depression and im still medicated and a still smoke joints.but the hardest time in my life just passes through.i still have suicidal thoughts but i can go with them.i just want to say that school is tje worst time but after that things change.bye my warriors keep fighting life dont let that ***** win the game.