All I wanted was for people to like me, that’s all I wanted. To have a place I feel like I belong, somewhere I would never have to doubt whether I’m welcomed or not. I’ve never found that place, and I don’t think I ever will. I’ve given up on trying to mold myself into what other people want me to be. I don’t understand where I fuck up or what I do to make people hate me so fucking much, no matter who it is. I’m so fucking alone. 7 billion people on this horrid planet and not one can decide they want to keep me around. I am so sick of trying so hard all the time always to end up crying with shaky hands. Was it really too much to ask for? I don’t know what I do so wrong all the fucking time. Someone tell me what I did to constantly feel like this, something no person should ever feel. I hate myself so fucking much and this hurts so fucking bad I can’t deal with it any longer.
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I will tell you how to “be liked” by the world, if thats what you want:
1) be an asshole. Assholes get respected by most everyone.
2) lie, cheat, steel. Most folks out there will understand that because most folks do that themselves.
3) Care only about yourself. Be selfish. Thats a biggie nowadays. After all, most everyone else can also see where you are coming from, as they are that way themselves.
There, now you know to be loved by the world 🙂
Exact same thing I’m dealing with and the same questions i ask myself. So many people on this planet and so far not 1 has decided they want to have me as a friend. Being lonely hurts so bad and i understand why they’re starting to say lonliness is worse for you than smoking or obesity. It’s a pain in your heart and mind day in day out feeling like you’re defective for not being accepted anywhere in this world. Im sure it does take years off your life to hurt like this. I never even wanted “people” to like me, one person would be more than enough. Cant even find 1. I can deal with not being successful and everything else not great in my life, but the lonliness is the one thing i cant just pretend isnt there. Some day it will bring me down for good.
Well, stress is a killer for sure. I was just rreading over some info about how a cancer gene is often triggered when someone is under chronic stress for a long time. Thats why they say those who are divorced are much more likely to get cancer over the next couple years, so perhaps thats what I have to look forward to, as I already know my health has gone down, and losing health insurance in another week is only going to add to future bad health.
Are you a guy or woman?
Try getting out and perhaps doing something around other people. You might run into someone you like, that likes you. I dont have a job right now, wife ruined my life in terms of friends, so I’m at a loss with that.
You might not meet someone right away, but you might. Thats my suggestion.
if you arent a stalker, weirdo, you should be able to get a nice partner (eventually) 🙂
Yup you’ve got it down exactly as I have it. I’m sorry you have to feel that way, though.
It only takes one person you can talk to even if that person is long distance. It’s unfortunate that chat forums don’t provide enough of a sense of a person to be safe enough to open up. Nevertheless I’m leaving my email in case you want to reach out and just introduce yourself. I’m someone on here who is post-suicidal. I’m sick today and can’t do much more than be on the laptop or sleep. I’ve personally experienced years of isolation and have an immense amount of empathy for those who are experiencing it now. jefferywissman(at)gmail(dot)com
PS I left a duplicate message hanging in moderation because I wrote my email address correctly. SMH
@wifeisgone, I’m a female. I do go out but I don’t have any real friends, just people to hang out with. There’s a difference.
Im sorry you are in that position too. Yes, I agree, it isnt the same. I still have a couple of friends who never liked my wife, the rest of them “went away”.
FLwaterguy99 (at) gmail.com
Id like to hear from you.
Hey dead. Just writing to say I can relate.
A site like this is good for finding others who might understand our negative feelings. I don’t know if it’s so great a place to seek a new group of friends though…
Obviously there may be exceptions however. (For example, jswissman is post-suicidal so he might be good to talk to. You might also want to delete the earlier post of his (there are duplicates) with his correctly-typed e-mail though, so he doesn’t get spammed too much…)
I think I’ve seen you on ******, Sabi, although we’ve never talked before. I will delete his comments, I didn’t know it mattered about duplicates I don’t know much about that stuff on here besides reading other peoples stuff and posting my own.
Yeah I started visiting ****** a couple of days ago, so I don’t know all that much about what things are like on there. Was just trying to get a feel for things today. I’m too boring for chat though, really. Have you been visiting there for a while?
About deleting that comment: It’s because spammers have programs that scour the web for e-mail addresses to “harvest.” Then come the junk mails offering viagra or whatever.