I came out to a few people I ‘trusted’ and the one person, I actually though I LOVED. It was the worst decision I ever made, I though when i’d told people, the bad thoughts would stop! They haven’t, they’ve gotten worse, and now the person I Loved and my parents are ashamed of me! I just want the pain to STOP! It hurts!
I’m 15 🙁
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If it wasn’t for the hatred of others, no one would have a problem coming out. To come out is an act of courage that those around you cannot imagine much less ever hope to achieve themselves. In the end, if you decide to stick around, you will find a family of men and women who will love and support you. They may not be the family that you were given at birth, but a chosen family can be much stronger and last much longer than a birth family.
There are millions of us out here, with our arms open…
I both dread and welcome the day I come out. My family’s reaction will certainly be horrible but It’ll be fine because, from that day on, I know I’ll be free from the binds they’ve trapped me in and I’ll finally be able to be the person I really am.
I feel you are extremely brave. Coming out could not have been an easy decision, but you were true to yourself and you were honest… that’s a strength most people do not have or could ever dream of having.
I am sorry your family did not react well. As Ellie said above, there are millions of people who love you and support you. There are folks on here posting who are. Please hang on and talk to us.
I’ve tried to get closer to the one person i actually LOVE, they rejected me and told me, that they’d never speak to me again, I’ll never be happy again, I LOVED him I didn’t expect him to like me back. I just wanted him to know, what’s the point in carrying on!? I have nothing to look forward to, if the only person I’ve EVER LOVED hates me! If I left the world he wouldn’t Care! 🙁
Coming out was difficult for me too, all the gossiping murmurs, girls thinking I’d look at them in the locker room and shit, it was so beyond annoying and once it came to my friends behaving the same way it was hurtful but I got past it, so will you.
I guess, I just expected him to be excepting, I tried talking to him today and him blanked me, it hurt! I have STRONG feelings for him and I have for a while and now I’ve messed it up, I hope the New Year brings hope! If not I may have to end the excruciating pain! I fear I may have lost a friend forever!