For years now it’s been the same: I’m second best- no I’m at the end of the line. What did I do to feel this way? I’ve been asking myself that often lately. I’m not trying to get attention, but a little would be nice. I feel as if no one is there that will find the time to listen and tell me I’m not alone and I will be fine. I have friends, but I feel unimportant to them. I don’t want them to see me as the miserable person I am, I want them to see me as someone they love having as a friend. I’m not great looking, at all, but I’m not the kid everyone loves to hate on because of how ugly they are. I still cannot find someone to look past my flaws and actually try to be my friend. I’ve learned since I crossed over to this dark side if you don’t have looks you will not have the same opportunities that everyone needs. You need love. And at this point I’ve scared my family enough as to them rolling their eyes and saying “you need help.” I tried to get help, it makes me feel insecure. I need love, attention, and people who tell me they care. I know I am selfish, but for once, I want to be the person I strive to be, but without looks getting in the way.
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I feel your pain…as a 21 year old that has been binge eating my pain for years I understand. I weigh 320 pounds. I was up to 370 at one point and used pot to cope instead of binge eating. I’m trying to lose weight but its hard. People don’t like fat people. Its almost impossible to get a job. I look like a slob in everything I wear. I’ve only ever had 1 serious girlfriend. She was very hot and into bigger guys but she ended up cheating on me. I’m lonely and sad. I think about killing myself every day. I’ve never had friends. The 5 people my entire life that I thought were friends all stabbed me in the back eventually. People are mean and judge you in the first couple seconds of seeing you. My weight problem is a flag to anybody that looks at me. The only way I can ever lose weight is by eating 1 meal a day and exercising for hours. Other people eat crap all day long and are skinny rails. I wish woman would hit on me. Check me out..love me. I want to get healthy. Sorry the world is cruel and people are bastards that think only of themselves most of the time. Good luck. Plastic surgery ?