Day 16

Hi Guys,

I don’t feel well… I feel suicidal… So suicidal… So depressed and sad I don’t know what to do…

How am I? Physically: Broken Mentally: Broken

My physical state… It’s just not the best right now… I have no cuts… Well not yet… Maybe later tonight my body will have a few… But who knows? Maybe I’ll be pathetic and not cut… I just don’t know… I don’t feel well… I don’t feel like I deserve to live… I’m in so much pain… So many tears… Why should I live when I’m in so much pain? Can’t I go?

My mental state… It’s just too broken to be fixed… I’m thinking thoughts… Mentally writing a note to all of my friends… Well to the ones that care… I mean why? Why live? Why can I not leave? I just feel so suicidal… I mean I would do it after my family went to sleep. No one would know until they got the news… I just can’t cope anymore guys… I mean I only have a few friends… 8 friends… 1 that is stopping me…. I just wish I could leave…. I feel it would be better for the world….

I don’t know maybe this is a goodbye in its own way… Maybe it’s not… Who knows…

Well here’s your poem:

wish i could
go and say
goodbye to you.
wish i could
submit into the
silent, peaceful, darkness
wish i could
just leave you
and many more
just behind here
on planet Earth.
wish i could
leave you so
you could continue
on with your
busy, important life.
wish i could…

Au Demain