In Pain :(

I am young but have had the misfortune of having so many illnesses and ailments. At this point, I just want to die quickly and painlessly.  It’s not that I want to die- I just don’t want to suffer for the rest of my life.  Physically, I am fucked.  What I have isn’t all going to go away and get better.  So why prolong this endless pain and suffering?

I hate my life and I hate my cruel fate.  I’ve already been made to suffer for so many years.  Why must I suffer more?