I still remember how boring and empty my life was before i met him , and how when we started getting together it was just for fun ,wasn’t planning to ever fall for him or think the way im thinking right now ,i fell so hard i was ready to do anything literally ANYTHING ,and then he slightly started to back off ,its like he did that in purpose he just had this need to kill someone mentally for no reason ,he just left me without saying anything after he started to act mean ,i know he’s not mean i just dont know why! He left my world so cold ,the world i wanted to share with him and only him ,no friends no family ,just him.
The way i started to think is so strange im getting these thought that wont leave me alone ,my incredible need to ruin my life and sabotage myself! I dont want this ,i dont want to be like that i just cant stop ,the only way i can stop thinking about it is to rest my mind in peace and just leave this boring life ,the one he left me alone in it! I dont know what did i do wrong ,how could he forget everything just like that! Why? I dont feel like living anymore not without him.
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You do realize that this planet if full of MANY eligible bachelors for you to choose from? Clearly this one is an idiot. FORGET him, because it’s taking you away from the good guys that would love to LOVE you for life. I went through this with a girl that went from just about perfect to a total soul crusher. When you are done grieving this awful breakup, and you get back to enjoying Yourself, you will be pleasantly surprised at how many people are interested in establishing a long term relationship with you. I speak from experience, and so would anyone else. Bad breakups happen, and they are painful as hell, but it doesn’t mean that you are in hell. Just in pain. It will pass. Be well, spider girl.
I always have the reverse problem: life is exciting, full of color, wonderful, then I meet some girl and get in a relationship and everything turns gray and boring. o.o
I get where you’re coming from, though. I’ve had a handful of relationships like you describe, but as hc says, there are many humans on planet earth – if one of them is making you feel awful, then forget him and find someone who you can feel happier with. They’re out there, waiting, probably saying how they wished someone like you would drop into their lives. You just have to find them.