A new day

Its been some time since my last post, maybe a week maybe two. Time has been slipping past so fast I barely even notice it. It still is the same grey world but now there is something different about it. I gave myself a fighting chance. After I had posted I felt a small relief on myself my story was out somewhere and none judged it, instead they offered support and wishes for well being. Thats when I decided upon something.

I will make a stand for who I am and what I want. I refuse to beaten and pummeled by something that is not even there. I Will Carve a Spot for myself in this world. I will make it work, somehow, someway. Even if it means that my life is equivalent to walking on broken glass, I’ll lift my chin up high and fight on living. For when it is all said and done and death, be it by disease, accidents or natural causes, claims me, I can look back the tracks I came and say. “I made it through.” with pride.

And to you my dear Sp readers I say : Thank you all, from the bottom of my heart, I fell far but this site, you people caught me so thank you again.

And when you yourself feel like life is out to get you this is what I want to say: You have already walked through hell on earth and you still draw breath, still you live. What can the future hurt us with now when we can can live with shadows of our past?

I will fight to carve a small place I can call my own and take one more step forward. I am not expecting an insane change in my life, tha small movement in the right direction is enough. I will endure and if you decide to do the same know that I will fight with you, you are not alone.

Love,
Bloodboil, aka
Tommi Martin, from
Finland