I’m sitting here looking out this window, watching the world pass by. I see people driving by, working, laughing and holding hands the truth is I feel nothing but emptiness. I feel alone, I feel like a failure, like a nobody. The fucked up part is that I’m staring out this window thinking of you and wondering if I even slightly cross your mind. But I know you aren’t your thinking of yourself, and me I’m thinking of how I failed you. I can’t save you and it’s killing me, I want to die because I’m worthless. It’s over for me because I couldn’t do this one thing right, because I’d rather die than accept the truth. I’m sorry, I love you.
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What is the ‘one right thing’ that you couldn’t do ?
What is the truth that you can not accept ?
I think I waste just as much time. I just finished building towers out of shotguns shells for no reason really. Just cause. And I feel you am your thoughts. There is someone out there that I cannot stop thinking about. But they aren’t thinking about me or what was us like you said. And that bothers me. Deep down I know she cares, she just won’t allow herself to at this point. And it’s in large cause of mistakes I made. I pushed her away in a sense. It’s not what I wanted to do or was trying to do, but it is what I did. She made mistakes too but….i dunno where I am going with this now. Basically. It sucks. For some it will get better, others it may never. I hope things work out for you. I really do. If you wanna talk or what not I will listen.
@duderino be normal have a healthy mindset so that awful things wouldn’t happen to me. That way I could be the best version of me.
And the truth I don’t want to accept is that there is no point in life and a person will never truly be happy problems never go away. I don’t matter to myself or to anyone so why keep living this facade?
@eviloni22 I’ve been pushed away, I’m still being pushed away. And yet I still stay I still try to help to show that I care. And its for nothing, just wasted time just more pain just anguish. Everyday I cry because I feel empty because I feel dead inside there hasn’t been a day that I haven’t cried.